Self-Assessment: About me
Life’s Changing Experiences
I want to wake up one day and feel completely at peace. I want to hold that peace and share it with everyone and with any luck make this world a better place to live. I want to share experiences and knowledge that others may not know. One question though is how I am going to do this. I keep telling myself, one step at a time, one day at a time.
Almost a year ago I decided to get off my butt and do something about this lost feeling, I applied for financial aid. It was a long process, but I finished and waited weeks. I finally got the e-mail that my application had been reviewed for consideration and I waited another few weeks. Finally got the e-mail I was accepted and needed to find a program to study. I contacted WTC and they set me up with a counselor that helped me pick a program that fit my hobbies and interests. Yay!!!
Now, here I am in the Digital Marketing Career Preparation course and already starting to blog for my website! This course has already taught me so much about myself that I feel I was in denial with. I scored the highest in discovering self-motivation. Funny too because I don’t have the motivation, but it got me to submit that application and now (so far) I’m doing better than I did 17 years ago. This class gives me motivation to continue being myself, which Is why I love this assignment, even though writing a blog is more complicated than a journal (or maybe the curated template just has a lot of info for help). Hopefully once I get the hang of it, it’ll come natural to me.
My second highest score is accepting personal responsibility. I feel I have learned this all too well working for VMH. I’ve worked there for 10 years now and I have had to accept a lot of personal responsibility to be at work every day. The moral of VMH has really gone downhill over the past couple years. We have a new medical record software that we share with Gundersen and are now financially suffering because it costs so much for the program plus training. It has resulted in not being trained professionally, which has led to mistakes being made and no bonuses for employees and longer. I take personally responsibility for the mistakes I do make there, however, I feel if we had the proper training it would have helped. Its causing too much stress for me to remember everything, get used to using the program, now they have changed the content of it again. Frustrating!!!
This self- assessment opened my eyes to the fact that I believe but I don’t believe much in myself. That is something I want to change for myself and for my son, to show him it can be done! I also scored low in self-awareness which does surprise me a little because I feel very aware of myself but maybe not as much as I should. Mastering self-management is a close tie to employing self-interdependence. These are also a slap in the face because I live life alone. I’m a single, full-time working mom and I do it all on my own. Maybe it means I’m not perfect, but there is always room for improvement, right?
The last two are adopting lifelong learning and developing emotional intelligence, both I scored somewhat low in. I think I’m on the right track correcting lifelong learning. I’m here (in school again) so I must be on the right path. Developing emotional intelligence, I’ve been working on for years but with my PTSD, its not that simple. PTSD makes me foggy and very emotional, very tough to control. I’ve developed this after a few events in life but after my car accident, that was my breaking point. I tried to get help but all the doctors wanted me to do was take more medication that gave me side effects. I was tired of feeling like crap every day, trying to get through the day and just go to bed again. That’s no the way I want to live.
It’s taking me what seems like forever, but I feel like I’m finally on the right path to my goals, hopes and dreams. Positive thinking goes a long way and my hope is that this blog and others to come help give someone hope and a desire to carry on no matter how difficult it is. There are a few inspirational speakers I listen to, Julie Santiago, Gabby Bernstein and Aviva Romm, MD. I have learned so much about myself by listening to them and making my path my own. They are also bloggers, so this is really exciting for me to use them as mentors and hopefully, maybe have my own blog site!